(It totally did matter, but Eddie was in truth too embarrassed to admit the situation in full.)
like i said it wasnt surprising.
is it bad that i dont want to have to try and make someone eat of my hand? maybe it's cause im old or maybe it's because i just dont think i can but im erring on the side of maybe just wanting to be wanted just because someone looked at me and already decided that i was desirable which is probably farfetched but it's nice to hear i worked for you
that sounds like an understatement. i mean it. It's worth a lot. you do make me feel wanted. and a bit like im not just filling a quota but that you're just actually enjoying the time together which we should have more of sometime.
[ It was probably best not to tell him anyway. Ransom would put him on his shit list and nobody wanted to be there. But he said just a friend. He'd keep an eye out for this 'friend'. ]
Don't be shocked if I ask again.
[ Hmm. ]
No, it's not bad. Who wants to feel like they're not good enough? I don't think someone can truly enjoy something if they're pretending to be someone else. It might be nice once or twice, especially if it's sexual or a one night stand, but it's not real and it might not feel great later.
Maybe age has something to do with it. Maybe not. I don't sleep with anyone that doesn't want me.
Worked for you is putting it mildly, Eddie.
I didn't ask you to meet with me for the quota. Sure, it counts, but I don't really care about that. And I would have told you to go if we hadn't hit it off.
im not trying to sound like a dick or anything. just why do you care?
(The thing was Eddie meant the question whole-heartedly. People outside of the Losers getting mad on his behalf or defensive was completely foreign to him and it left him reeling. Hell, the person who'd made him feel shitty originally had been a Loser. Eddie couldn't imagine why Ransom would...
Then again, maybe he could, because after all why else would he come to confide in him afterward?)
I thinnk you're right. even if we're pretty good at lying to ourselves it's hard to lie about whether or not we are really happy about something i can't really imagine having a one night stand. i mean entirely. not to scare you off but you'd already probably have to pry me away with a crow bar not that im saying im expecting anything. i just consider you a friend now and i dont abandon friends sorry i feel im being really overly honest right now. point is yeah i can see it not feeling great later.
I think i actually believe you. you're one of those guys who seems like you can land anyone you want, so why would you waste time with anyone you DIDNT want? it makes sense. and in a roundabout way it makes me feel better. i thought it was a pity fuck situation at first but i dont really think so anymore
We can do whatever. theres a whole city i havent fully experienced yet. im sure there's something fun to do somewhere with you.
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(It totally did matter, but Eddie was in truth too embarrassed to admit the situation in full.)
like i said it wasnt surprising.
is it bad that i dont want to have to try and make someone eat of my hand? maybe it's cause im old or maybe it's because i just dont think i can but im erring on the side of maybe just wanting to be wanted just because someone looked at me and already decided that i was desirable
which is probably farfetched
but it's nice to hear i worked for you
that sounds like an understatement. i mean it. It's worth a lot. you do make me feel wanted. and a bit like im not just filling a quota but that you're just actually enjoying the time together
which we should have more of sometime.
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Don't be shocked if I ask again.
[ Hmm. ]
No, it's not bad.
Who wants to feel like they're not good enough?
I don't think someone can truly enjoy something if they're pretending to be someone else.
It might be nice once or twice, especially if it's sexual or a one night stand, but it's not real and it might not feel great later.
Maybe age has something to do with it. Maybe not.
I don't sleep with anyone that doesn't want me.
Worked for you is putting it mildly, Eddie.
I didn't ask you to meet with me for the quota. Sure, it counts, but I don't really care about that. And I would have told you to go if we hadn't hit it off.
What do you want to do?
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(The thing was Eddie meant the question whole-heartedly. People outside of the Losers getting mad on his behalf or defensive was completely foreign to him and it left him reeling. Hell, the person who'd made him feel shitty originally had been a Loser. Eddie couldn't imagine why Ransom would...
Then again, maybe he could, because after all why else would he come to confide in him afterward?)
I thinnk you're right. even if we're pretty good at lying to ourselves it's hard to lie about whether or not we are really happy about something
i can't really imagine having a one night stand. i mean entirely. not to scare you off but you'd already probably have to pry me away with a crow bar
not that im saying im expecting anything. i just consider you a friend now and i dont abandon friends
sorry i feel im being really overly honest right now.
point is yeah i can see it not feeling great later.
I think i actually believe you. you're one of those guys who seems like you can land anyone you want, so why would you waste time with anyone you DIDNT want? it makes sense. and in a roundabout way it makes me feel better. i thought it was a pity fuck situation at first but i dont really think so anymore
We can do whatever. theres a whole city i havent fully experienced yet. im sure there's something fun to do somewhere with you.